its 3 am . . .

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd; 

Alexander Pope

blessed are the forgetful: for they "get the better" even of their blunders.

Nietzsche

moving. thats the only word i could think of.

ok.

thats all you can say to things sometimes.
take em as they come.
face em. embrace em.
take em on.take em along
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eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
new police story
two weeks notice
hard candy
finding neverland

five movies. insomnia. loss of appetite.what next?
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listening to too much love will kill you by queen at 3 am. remembering the first time i heard.sitting in the front of a Tata sumo headed for school in 11th.Irritated, confused,frustrated.no idea why.6 years ago.places, people,situations change.and the song remains the same.it still makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck.
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watching.gazing at that majestic bird as it sits and preens its wings. as it spreads them and feels the wind, and looks every which way with such grace as if it hardly cares.and then coming back 15 minutes later and trying to find the that lordly raptor again.

smiling as i follow the lovely mynah as it struts on forward on the path ahead of me.now walking with gaeity, now hopping along like a bird, now turning around n staring like a child.
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wonder what it is that really changes.am realizing very simple obvious things in these last few days.friends. future. goals. being a 6 year old.smiling to myself as i lie back and watch the stars.feeling the wind. feeling the morsels of food go done slowly. savouring that warm feeling in my stomach. as TS puts it, this feels good.waking up to life. one realization at a time.
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what was it that i said.a true friend will always be there for you no matter how much you or circumstances might happen to push them away.they will be there.be it days or decades later that you may take to realize that.its a fact.
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just created a Slashdot party for this saturday. let's see how many people end up actually finding out about it.
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Now playing:
Queen - Too Much Love Will Kill You